Emma

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2012-02-10T00:38:00.003+08:00

#1 got my hair dyed before cny and the colour seems to be fading off already. never mind heading for purple next ^^

#2 the headband is so comfortable. holds my hair up nicely and tight. i love headbands.

currently on my research paper and the progress is just s l o w. there are so many things to write but i can't seem to throw them together to make it flow logically. mr pras doesn't even want to see my outline. sigh. last lap. go me go.

money jobs career dreams

2012-02-04T02:00:00.002+08:00

Did I tell you, working numbs my every feeling every thought everything. It just makes me not focus on whatever happened on me. Numb.

In the hospitality industry, it helps a lot especially when one is so broken and jaded inside. You focus so much on another person you let go of your own emotions. Your aim at that point of time is to do your job well and to bring a smile to your guest. Cast away all worries and insecurities about yourself because you put all your concentration on others. Like what I say, numb to your own emotions.

That's why I like to work. Keeps my mind occupied, tucks my emotions away.

I, I love you like a love song baby

2012-02-02T14:58:00.001+08:00

Back to school after a long/excruciating/tiring/fulfilling/enjoyable/fun 20 weeks of internship. There is no exact word to describe it because there were times when I really loved my job and times when I really just want to stay home and sleep. Now that it's over, I can heave a sigh of relief and erm prepare for my research paper.

Bittersweet feeling when I left the company. I don't really know what to feel. Hahahahahahaha is this a joke? And I don't know where to head to from here now. What job to even look for.......

Different

2012-01-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

different people, different perspectives. different mind, different thinking. different roads, different dreams. different paths, different lives.

everyone leads a very different life. one that might be filled with ups and downs, one that might be filled with rainbow of joy everyday. as i have said, different people, different lives. we may not have walked the same path of lives, but our paths have crossed nonetheless. i am glad you have the opportunity to do what you want, to pursue your own dreams, studies, career etc.

some people get the opportunity to study abroad for a few years, some get to work there. i am sorry, but i do not get the luxury of either. i did not get a chance to study overseas (and i doubt i will ever be able to do that), and i am perhaps a little too young to get a job overseas. but there is one thing i can do, that is to travel.

you get to live there for a few months, i get to live there for a few weeks. just experiencing what it feels like would be good enough. who knows, i might have the opportunity to travel and see more than you do. i want to backpack the world, or step by step, if i ever have the chance to do so.

this might seem queer to you but i can't help but smile at the thought of travelling. i love travelling, it gives me so much satisfaction and joy. thank God.

Things To Do

2012-01-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

so i figured, no resolutions this year. just some things to do. i shall write it in my scheduler to remind myself too. this year, i am going to make it magical and beautiful for myself.

1. watch a movie alone

2. get all drunk till i literally drop to the floor (BECAUSE I CAN DRINK AGAIN)

3. backpack

4. write letters

5. picnic

6. roll in the greens

11 days into 2012 and days have been.......meh for me.

realisations

2012-01-10T00:28:00.003+08:00

on the first of january, lh and i went to prive bakery. it was good. good old english breakfast in a superbly cold environment. nevertheless, it was really therapeutic. i finally had time to eat and appreciate. i shall head there again soon and just sit there. it's such a nice place albeit the hot weather. we sat indoors though, wrong decision.

maybe we should stop to smell some flowers and just appreciate the greenery. too caught up in this stupid urban and fast-paced lifestyle. it is not even funny that i find this year passing too quickly. it felt like yesterday that i went to prive, when it has already been 8 days.

i can't wait for the 20th with my girls. bring on the picnic mat and greenery. now i am just praying for a nice weather.

p.s. i think my brother is gay ;)

Obligatory post

2012-01-08T01:19:00.001+08:00

Hi there how has 2012 been for you? I just felt obliged to update my blogger a little since I've left it alone for quite a while.

So obligatory I don't even know what to write. Goodnight.

sufficient

2011-12-31T01:41:00.002+08:00

it's the 31st of december, 1:42am. so the year just went past like that. too caught up in my own business i forgot about others. too caught up with the things happening to me i forgot time passes so quickly. too caught up with searching for things to fill voids up i forgot what those voids are already. too caught up with healing the broken hearts i forgot mine was fragile too.

but god is good. he taught me so many valuable lessons this year, showed me some really golden friends who stayed by my side, blessed me with a loving blood and spiritual family, gave me bad times so i realise the good ones and most importantly, a blessed and happy life. i have never been more thankful.

so what if there are bad times? does this mean i give up on my entire life and wallow in self pity? bad and good times happen all the time. pick myself up, learn and move on. find myself. find my living and breathing soul. life has its good and bad, so why be stuck in that moment and thinking of all the bad things. life is meaningful, it always is.

thank you god for this wonderful and amazing year. it has truly been a blast though things took a change towards the end of the year. i hope 2012 will be equally amazing. bless me with a full-time job, one that would accommodate church and family and friends time. may everyone's 2012 be an exceptional and special one. let all the magic begin in everyone's lives have a wonderful 2012 guys! enjoy the very last bit of 2011, drop all the memories and move on to a brand new year and life X

Fall asleep in my heart

2011-12-16T00:44:00.001+08:00

#1 Half priced waffles at Gelare on a random Tuesday while Kelvin & I were at Suntec

#2 Afternoon snack

#3 Proudest moments in swimming

#4 Hard copy licensed received in the mail!

#5 Christmas lightings at MBS

#6 Old school ice cream

#7 Macaroons from TWG

#8 Reflections at Keppel Bay while I was at Keppel Club

2011-12-06T02:27:00.003+08:00

why shouldn't every girl be entitled to look at other girls and drool and ogle and just stare in amazement. i guess this explains about everything.

thank you, once again

2011-11-30T23:37:00.002+08:00

thank you Lord for the real wonderful friends that i have. no one can truly understand how much this sucks because not everyone is like me. well, we're all different. dropping it all of a sudden and leaving this life behind, it is difficult and not to mention tough.

friends have been with me through this period, and thank you that my family has been so tolerant with me even when i flare up. this period has been such a chore for me. everyday popping pills and going through the same motions over and over again, and not doing the things that i have been doing. dropping the drinks, the lifestyle it really is tough.

so many people have been so supportive of me and they are truly golden friends. thank you for showing them into my life. they have been such wonderful companions during the past month and i must continue to be strong for the next 4 months. so Lord, bless my friends, family and i with strength and many good days ahead. amen. :)

Happy (Belated) Thanksgiving

2011-11-25T23:46:00.001+08:00

1. Dad
2. Mum
3. Joey
4. Jeric
5. Ashley
6. Ziqi
7. Zhenzhi
8. Shervin
9. H12 girls <3
10. Sharmain
11. Genevieve
12. Brewerkz colleagues :)
13. Spiritual family
14. Kenny
15. IJ friends
16. Marissa
17. Yanlin
18. Michele
19. All my wonderful friends
20. Swimmers
21. This amazing life

Thank you Lord for bringing them into my life. Life would have never been the same without them. Happy thanksgiving everyone, I love you all.

What can I do for you, Mam?

2011-11-21T00:56:00.001+08:00

so broken and jaded I don't know what to do. have not been in the best of moods lately and everyone around me is certainly not helping. I go to work with a smile plastered to my face, trying to be happy, attempting to appear all smiley and feeling good. I am so sick of this. why did I let myself into this. it feels as if I am living for another individual and not for myself. honestly, I find all of these such a joke. why bother right. why try so hard when the other party does not care. right now, I just need someone to know how I feel but it is so hard for me to put it into words. you know how it feels to walk around in someone's skin and truly feel what they feel?

sick and tired of all these shit. this is why I don't like to be here and I'd rather be out there pretending that life is beautiful. I finally have my off tomorrow. a day which I can finally roll around on the grass and just lie there, gazing up to the sky and wishing you were here with me.

right now, I just wish for someone to have some good old English breakfast with me, accompanied with a cup of hot tea. god please help me.

Independence

2011-11-16T22:53:00.001+08:00

Today I was just talking about how I feel about things in general to a person that I've just met. Things like kpop, movies, personal interests and hobbies etc. He commented on my thoughts saying that my mind is very matured and independent, that I do not follow the crowd just because it is popular. I kind of like it, shows that I am not blindly following the world but I do have my own beliefs.

Just wondering, do I strike you as such a person?

cheers to a new beginning

2011-11-10T00:16:00.003+08:00

1 liter of absolut mango sitting on my table, and it is not even for me. this is so so torturous. 6 months please go by quickly.

There is a time & place for everything

2011-11-07T11:37:00.001+08:00

My off day yesterday was spent:
1. Meeting up with ZZ and her boyfriend for lunch
2. Spending quality time at the Botanical Gardens with Kelly
3. Dinner at Bishan for Macs (because we were both craving for it haha)
4. Running in the night with my brother
5. Playing with Bui Meow

2011-11-02T01:00:00.001+08:00

I need a hug right now :(

but everything looks perfect from far away

2011-10-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

I should stop harping about internship. It ain't doing me any good but well, I do enjoy it to a certain extent. Taking a toll on my physical state and social life but so far so good, if anyone is concerned... now even a 15 minute nap at home can make my day complete. today was one of the rare days i can take that short nap.

bus rides always make me think. a lot. so much it drives me insane. i need my license and car. harrow god please drop a car from heaven outside my house. after that, my license might just come in handy. my dad says the best drivers never pass on their first tries. hahahaha silly dad of mine so adorable. crossing my fingers for november!!

the postal service on repeat now. songs do some pretty amazing stuff to your emotions and mind. they make you think, cry, and just mind blow you. songs like the scientist omg i can cry listening to the song at 4am in the morning. i love/hate coldplay. such meaningful lyrics but it always makes me think so much.

abrupt ending - everyone is talking about man city trashing man utd 6 - 1. hello soccer??? tia boh.

STOP PLAYING WITH MY MIND

Lights will guide you Home

2011-10-17T23:55:00.001+08:00

Out with the Brew people

Internship

2011-10-10T00:56:00.001+08:00

slouching in my chair, almost curled up in a ball, my legs on the table. living life the way it should be. hell yeah

Ends of the Earth

2011-10-03T01:22:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging a lot. or rather, i am too lazy to blog. internship now and though i've pretty much been slacking and passing each day very lazily, i have to admit i am enjoying internship! gen and huiyi makes things really more fun, and without them i honestly feel i cannot survive. i feel sleepy and they will try to wake me up no matter what. haha thank you girls :) and stop reading my blog in front of me. very awkwardddd. they use the computer in the office to read my blog. so embarrassing and not to mention weird when someone reads your blog in front of you. quit stalking me you two!! hahaha.

i have to be more disciplined when it comes to exercising. forever putting it off because of the lameass weather. FOCUS EMMA. be determined. look at all the skinny girls around you and you so buibui and baba. wake up wake up wake up. you would not remain this size forever, slim down slim down slim down so you can wear nicer and more chio clothes. lose weight so you can have a bigger wardrobe and a bigger hole in your pocket. your current weight is too fat lai lai lose weight STOP EATING. hate myself for eating and snacking. my internship company keeps offering us good food i will grow fat no matter what. stop feeding me :( RESIST RESIST RESIST. low carbo, more protein, less food intake. go emma go!

till then, i don't know what to blog about anymore. off days come quickly please!

Relationship

2011-09-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

My father came to pick me up from work today. In the car, he shared a few things. I felt closer to him than ever. This time made me cherish him. My father always asks us how is our school, how is our work, if we are hungry or not. It is only till today that I started to appreciate these little actions of his. He first asked if I was hungry, and if I wanted to grab a bite. I said no and sat in the car.

Talked about the condominium that we passed, saying he should have bought that instead of my current house yadah yadah. Then he started to share about his work life. You have to understand that my father and I have a close but not so close relationship. The kind of relationship whereby sometimes it's awkward between a father and daughter and at other times you feel really connected to him.

When he shared about his work life, I thought about how I wouldn't be able to hear this in a few more years. He shared about the politics in the company, the people he disliked and all. It is like he is letting his guard down and sharing things in his life with me. Besides family, my father goes to work, plays golf and basically does nothing else. So work plays a very huge part in his life, and I am glad he shares his work life with me. He mentioned that he wants to retire in about 5 years time, which hits me - Am I ready to contribute to my household income in 5 years time?

Seems difficult but my father has done it for so long it is time to take over. I want to give my parents a good life, especially my father. He has provided me with so much it is so hard to describe them in words. I am thankful for the car ride today. It makes me smile just thinking about it.

Internship Day #4

2011-09-18T13:11:00.001+08:00

Picked up phone calls, quoted prices etc. Keyed bookings into system and time passed pretty quickly.

Got assigned to design a brochure! Like finally we got something to do. Yay. Hahaha we simplified and translated the English document. Putting my PICC knowledge to good use hehe. Not too bad. Slack for now better days ahead because it is the holiday period. Day 5 today. Looking forward to my off day next Tuesday!!! :D Plans with Sharmeow for manicure and shopping!

Internship Day #3

2011-09-16T23:53:00.001+08:00

Day 3 of internship. Pretty much slack too. But interesting stuff happened heh ;)

Today we made friends with my supervisor and we talked a lot. A hell lot. It's crazy and she was telling us stories of what happened in the past etc etc. Funny and some were just mortifyingly hilarious. Haha.

So in the evening, a passenger was not happy with his seat arrangements and he made a fuss in the agency. He threatened to beat my supervisor up which was really scary. She stood firm though, raised her voice a little but handled it relatively well I guess. The passenger gave in in the end. One thing I realized she didn't apologize and say it's our fault because it really isn't. The branch office made the mistake, so it is not our fault. However, she was persistent in saying that if he wants a refund, she can do it immediately. Which I felt was not necessary, discourages his friends to take the company's coaches and bad advertising as there was another passenger in the agency too. Several ways to handle it, like asking if anyone wants to change seats or not might solve the issue. We cannot promise, but we can make amendments. Still, she offered to do the return trip seating arrangement nicely and said that she will make sure they have proper seats.

I picked up the phone today as well. 3 calls I think? Asking for prices and I'm glad I quoted them the right price! Thankfully. Guess I'm handling it quite well for now. May God bless me with such good days everyday. Heh. Time for sleep good night!

Internship Day #2

2011-09-16T00:45:00.002+08:00

Slightly more productive today. We looked through the sales kit again and Gen and I gave each other scenarios to calculate our prices from. Well, at least we know what to do and roughly know how to calculate now. Not that bad.

Looking forward to tomorrow! And I haven't spend a single cent yet heh ;) Lao ban niang is too nice! Cooking for us and she even gives money to treat us. Awwwwww family indeed. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll be able to calculate fast and efficiently!

Internship Day #1

2011-09-15T00:54:00.002+08:00

Today I went for day 1 of my internship. So basically I sat there the entire time reading the sales kit, reading the learning guide, mouthing "I am hungry" to Huiyi, randomly throwing questions at my colleague just because I have to and eating free meals.

The highlight of my day was when the lady boss pointed up to the TV to tell us to look at the baby pigs. LOLOLOLOL. And that we got released at 9:30pm.

Sounds pathetic but I guess it will get better plus first days of internships are usually boring, right?

Revolving Doors

2011-09-12T02:41:00.006+08:00

How do you make a gif

Scent

2011-09-03T11:49:00.004+08:00

do you smell it? it smells kind of familiar. some sort of like being able to do what i want. i think it is the smell of liberation. freedom, too. finally a break from everything for 12 days hell yeah. going to genting over the next weekend yeeeehaaaaaaa with laury kelly and maybe linghui! crossing my fingers that linghui can join us xx

for now i have to balance time between friends and families and partying? haha i will have to go on a 5 month hiatus from partying after this 12 days. yes no no yes? bu zhi dao :( we'll see how it goes. got plans lined up though! sunday dim sum buffet then expo for borders sale and maybe h&m too and i'll ask my parents if they wanna go eat crabs at changi hehe. monday shopping with laury yay shopping again. tuesday go on food hunt. wednesday night party? thursday night brewerkz dinner with the brewerkz people and friday will be genting!!! am supposed to go to weilin's and joeyboy's 21st on saturday but now i can't go :(

i'm so excited for genting it sounds so stupid and retarded. hahaha it's only genting but i am so geared up to chiong there. can't wait though. so fun so fun so fun theme park and whoopie up to the mountains we go!!!!

2011-08-30T08:04:00.002+08:00

It's 0805 in the morning now and I've been awake since 0703. Can't get to sleep too many things that I'm wishing for running through my mind. And they won't come true, I know. Lying on my bed with my blanket still covering me and hugging my bolster. Listening to the morning benders. Such nice songs they have. Very down-to-earth kind of songs. Wonderful bunch of people too. I'm going swimming later at 9 and I feel like sleeping already. Oops. Shouldnt have woken up so early.......

2011-08-29T18:47:00.004+08:00

Been listening to this a lot lately. Warms my heart every single time I don't even know why :')

2011-08-28T20:36:00.005+08:00

823 future

2011-08-21T12:44:00.005+08:00

long talks about education and ambitions. have you ever wondered what you really want to be? everyone must have ambitions since young. wellllllll i wanted to be a (lame) teacher. which was after all, an ambition. then as i grew up, i thought about how stupid a teacher is, need to dress up, need to wear nicely, students scrutinize you all day long, insult you, throw paper aeroplanes at you (which i did to my science teacher mr chiew in sec 1) and just stare at you with their bored faces all day long. of course, there are the diligent students who will look at you intently through their large frames and hold their pens and copy away furiously....geeks

so i scratched that and decided that being ambition-less would be a better choice. life is full of surprises, so why not just take it slow and allow yourself to be surprised right? then came sec 4.... when i had to think of whether a jc or a poly would be a more viable choice. i settled on the latter and then........... i had to decide on the course. my parents (mum especially) didn't like the idea of me taking htm. she thinks it has no future which is quite true but i insisted and tadah i landed in htm.

htm opened my eyes and i know at this time i have to do something related to this course, or something that i am really good at (aka basically nothing) it came to a point that i have to stay no matter what because of my shitty grades. it hit me, i make an ideal tour guide. people laugh when i say i want to be a tour guide. is it that bad? in fact, i feel that there is a lot of job satisfaction in being a tour guide. seeing everyone in the morning so tired and they enjoy themselves throughout the day and in the evening you look at their tired but satisfied faces, DON'T YOU FEEL HAPPY TOO :')

a few people told me i will make a very good tour guide (why thank you :>) but some object to it. oh well, it all boils down to how i really feel about it right. a friend of mine told me i look like those people who go out there to source for sponsorship etc. think an old folks home and they need people to sponsor food and i will be the one giving them the proposal and telling them how beneficial it will be for both parties when they sign the contract. hmm i guess that can work as well. they say i'm a very outspoken person, so why not? not everyone is outspoken. i guess that can work too. we'll see where life brings me to when i graduate.

others ask why don't i continue studying, furthering my studies, getting a degree. i thought about it, pondering about how much a degree will help in my career. i figured a degree is not necessary. so what if a degree pays more? as much as i am money-minded, i want to be a taitai, I AM REALISTIC TOO. i will be happier chasing after my dreams, will be happier doing what i like. so no, if you tell me a degree is better, i will just brush you off.

for now, it will be hello travel industry. you know i've loved you with all my life. after all, who doesn't like to travel? XX

TELL ME WHY

2011-08-18T23:28:00.003+08:00

WHY

why my grades like that

why am i so stupid

why am i not born smart

why am i not hardworking

why can't i be as smart as them

why do i not have straight As

why am i so lazy

why does this kind of things happen to me

why is this so unfair

why am i not talented enough

why am i not musically inclined

why is it that my grades will never be better

why do i give up so easily

why am i like this

why can't i push myself further

why can't i find myself in the crowd

why don't i see my true self

why is this world so broken

why do i live in this horrifying place

why am i like this

why can't i ever live up to your standards

why can't i make my parents proud

why am i never good enough for you

or for myself for the matter

WHY TELL ME WHY SOMEONE

Photobooth

2011-08-10T03:17:00.002+08:00

Listening to DCFC. Amazing beyond words, I love them.

I just finished doing my bit for the DPD report a while ago. Loading Grey's Anatomy now, watching an episode before I catch some sleep. Bet tomorrow my mum will grill me to order the catering food and all. I really should sleep soon but I wanna watch my GA too. Hahahaha this is so retarded. And I need to get the cake too. WHY GOT SO MANY THINGS TO DO. I'm thinking of cancelling my driving on Thursday to do... IDK what.

Driving..... I spent $2,100 on it already. Holy crap, I don't even know why. Oh it must be because I've skipped my lessons before and hurray I booked like 8 revision lessons at one go. Am so scared I will fail. TP TP TP. I must pass on my first try, if not I will be like a loser. Mmm yea I've got not much to blog about. Turning to livejournal more these days. Sorry blogger.

19 (III)

2011-08-02T21:47:00.005+08:00

Part 3 of my 19th spent at Rebel peekchas cause I am too lazy to type already...

Birthday cakes for the birthday people... and I don't even like cakes hahaha sorry guise

Gabriel talked so much that night, it was honestly A LOT

Drunk #1: Jinyang who managed to wake up for a picture with me HAHA

Drunk #2: Jonathan

Drunk #3: Jimmy

Yep the truth is... I am sick of clubbing. Hahahahhaa it might seem like a joke to some but I really am sick of it. My next post will prolly be filled with more clubbing pictures but that was a long time ago!

19 (II)

2011-07-28T12:22:00.006+08:00

A portion of my 19th was spent working out, mostly screaming through and talking nonsense. Yep, I did my NAPFA test on my 19th, how cool is that.

So the day started off when I was sound asleep on my bed and for no rhyme or reason, I woke up and guess who were outside my house? sammy, sharmeow and gwen. these 3 lovely girls decided to surprise me with their home-made oreo cake (which was delicious by the way) and confetti poppers and balloons and a card. how sweet of them. :') and i just had to ruin their surprise by sleeping hahaha

headed to school for consultation and ya spent the time doing nothing and had ticketing lesson with amadeus sys-tiem. had no clue what she was talking about half the time. next up, napfa omg. well at least i passed napfa! whoop whoop ^^ the girls made me a ryan gosling birthday card, it is so cute! haha thanks girls :)

back home to eat, shower, rest and change and braced myself for one long night. at like 2am half the population were on the sofa, dead. it was really quite a sight and i couldn't help but snigger each time i look at them. but guess who was sober? yours truly here. haha! and i was supposed to be the most drunk and the person to be puking all over the club. well, i'm glad most of them had fun (i hope)

now i am up and alive doing mice ppt. kinda loving my life ya?

19

2011-07-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

First angpao from the dad. Thanks dad!

2011-07-24T23:05:00.001+08:00

"You seem more like an independent lesbian"

:')

Should have given You a reason to stay

2011-07-15T15:34:00.003+08:00

Well hi there. I'm supposed to be doing my work but sigh, procrastination at its best yea. Blogging for the sake of blogging wth am I doing.

FaceTime-d BBK for the first time yesterday but my itouch was being a bitch so we used genelle's one! toured around brewerkz and ya.. lawrence came over to kp. but it's alright, i had my fair share of fun if you're jealous that you don't get to see kenny, i'm fine with it. ABSOLUTELY FINE WITH IT. most were so glad to see him. and ya it was nice seeing his face. HAHA KENNY YOU SEE THIS?! now stop stalking my blog. anyway, the "big dreams emama but it shall be" is said by him yep. so here it goes, credit goes to you!

my phone has "died". dad didn't pay the bills and my phone is practically useless. it just lies there, pathetic bb. sigh i wanted to go to the nearest 7-11 to pay the bills but my sister said that dad just mailed out the cheque today...so i guess i shall just wait for the sky to drop.

i've been feeling very out of my sys-tiem (if you attend zw's lessons you probably will know why it's typed like this) of late. very not myself. my head spins and i feel so.... dizzy, happy and crazy all of a sudden. i should really prepare to head out already

Fact not fiction

2011-07-09T03:45:00.002+08:00

Still up at 3:46am listening to Death Cab's A Lack of Colour

Death cab is so amazing, at least I have them to sustain me through the night. I love you to death, death cab. How can anyone not love them. I will follow you into the dark~~

Rambles

2011-07-07T22:06:00.003+08:00

why are you doing this to yourself

cuts

flames

burns

stop telling me what to do

no i cannot let go

don't dictate what i should do

drinks

crying

tears

nostalgic

reminisce

piling up

what are you doing in life

back on track

wounds

i can't do this

trust

it's a battle

war

you yourself

do it alone

quit

stay close

leave

myriad of words

done rambling whoop

House

2011-07-01T16:45:00.003+08:00

my future house will contain:

my own room please

a library (where i will be sipping tea and reading my book)

a swimming pool

an attic

rooftop garden

huge garden

A BASEMENT

bar counter

chandeliers

many dream catchers

shelves loads of them

and the list will go on and on but for now i can't think

big dreams, but it shall be (i will never ever forget this line)

Bittersweet

2011-07-01T16:21:00.003+08:00

So recently, I've been hanging out a lot with the colleagues. From eating at BIS for their awesome pizzas to the buffet at Ioki Restaurant to Cafe Iguana to clubbing at Rebel to sending BBK off.

I don't know what else to say really. Life is pretty screwed for now? I've been procrastinating and procrastinating and God knows when this will ever stop. Erm so ya, school has been taking a toll on me but I guess I can still handle for now.

Have no idea what to blog about anymore.. I'm losing this blogging vibe.

FYEAH

2011-06-27T03:03:00.000+08:00

Before completing DPD

After completing DPD

Hahaha I'm so retarded

so unworthy

2011-06-23T15:39:00.003+08:00

i like to type in chunks of words without any full stops commas or any sort of punctuation don't you just think it is fun okay i just had one hahaha fail anyway i am feeling so......... indescribable now and i have absolutely no idea why i am feeling this way i have tons of stuff to do but i just don't feel like doing anything ABSOLUTELY NOTHING let me list what i need to do ya i need to complete my dpd individual assignment which i have yet to start on yay me and i need to draw up a nice menu using my limited photoshop skills zzz then i have to do mice and complete fandb because it is such a pain in the ass and and and what else do i have to do oh i need to start reading and study too

most of the time i feel this way after i drink but yesterday i did not drink much because i wasnt feeling that well what is happening to me should i skip driving hahaha i should not it will take my mind off things maybe i should go to the library tonight i love the library smell of books and everyone so silent makes everything feel so surreal my kind of life that i want to lead - a personal library and then slow music will play in the background with aircon and i will be inside sipping my tea and reading my book why is there no 24hours library I WANT A LIBRARY AT HOME SO BAD

i can probably break down now what am i doing in my life why must there be projects and everything why why why I DONT WANT TO DO ANY PROJECTS OR INDIVIDUAL ASSIGNMENT please dad let me quit school and be a tour guide HAHAHAH JOKE RIGHT but i really want to be a tour guide it is so fun you know

i think i just made myself look like an idiot rambling and rambling on but hey this is me you know if you dont like it when i do stupid things like....throwing an iphone into the river then ya come eat my shit ya hahahahha oops rambling rambling rambling yay my fav post

This could last

2011-06-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

Partying every week ain't doing my body clock any good. Not to mention getting wasted like crazy. So this Wednesday was by far the worst ever, yep. Can hardly recall a thing so I will just wait for others to fill me in tomorrow. Gonna be embarrassing but what has happened has already happened. Life goes on.

One more week till this holidays just disappear like every other holiday. I can't wait for this semester to be over and then internship here I come!! Money will flow into my pocket YES then after internship more party and a grad trip! FINALLY A REAL WELL-DESERVED BREAK. After 3 years of shit. Venice sounds like a really good idea, or Europe. Perhaps a short trip to Bangkok and Phuket would do me some good too. Ah this is what I call life.

Projects are.... not progressing much I think. I feel like I am not putting much effort but I am too tired to do so. What is wrong with me. Whatever happened to working hard, whatever happened to study everyday, whatever happened to sleep by 12 every day. All bullshit. Last week I shall try my best to chiong.... for now, LEPAK TIME

Nothing shines quite as bright as you do

2011-06-12T10:15:00.003+08:00

I love it when the three of us come together, we just do so much nonsense together and I like that we sit together, relishing the moment. We hardly even meet, because of all our different schedules and commitments. Happy 3 friends, we are all happy people! :)

One week into the holidays nothing productive is done. Well, I did do a bit of research and completed my part for project so I guess that is a little achievement. And yea, the holidays been good and bad so far. It is difficult to describe, so many things happened.

It's time I go back to God. How distant have I been from Him? How long have I said I yearn for Him and want to worship him wholeheartedly. I feel like a girlfriend who cheats on her boyfriend. Hiding and doing things so sneakily, but the only difference is that God knows everything. Everything is about oh this is the last time. When exactly is your last time?

I AM ONLY HUMAN

2011-06-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

I smell the holidays, do you? Finally a breather from the amount of work that has been shoved to us. Everyone is complaining, kind of hilarious actually. We still get out of this shit alive, victorious. Well, but that is only because we don't have a choice right. Just one and a half more semester, I will graduate out of this shithole. I will wear my graduation suit with so much pride and bid goodbye to Singapore's education system. Farewell, books and hours of burying myself in the notes.

Perhaps I would want to take a degree, but not so soon. I am more career-minded than anything else. I kind of like it this way, it is like a 女强人, career woman. Being independent and not having to rely on men. I like this route actually. Right now I am not exactly feeding myself but at least I pay for a lot of my expenses. Take the HK trip and my driving lessons for example. At the end of the day, I feel accomplished and so good because I know I worked hard for these. Not having to rely on my father feels so good.

Now that the holidays are here, I have a bit more me-time and I don't have to worry about over-sleeping. Which is SO GOOD because now I can sleep in and not care about anything. Unless.. I have work. That is another issue. Gonna work out like crazy during the holidays (I hope I have the discipline.....)

Okay back to the CDs for erm SOL haha

We Could Have Had It All

2011-05-26T22:21:00.002+08:00

Finally this hectic week is coming to an end. 2 down, 3 more to go. F&B Review and MICE test down! Am so glad I feel like rewarding myself with ample sleep tonight. But it ain't gonna happen because I must sit down and complete my article review by this weekend. I will be out almost every night during the weekend so yeah... How to complete?!

Need to learn to set my priorities right. Work, school, church, family, friends, God. Who comes first? It is so hard to decide. Everything seems to come first. Speaking of priorities, I ought to email my internship company already. I hope they still have a placement for me! Crossing my fingers. Working hours are going to drive me crazy but I must survive this. It's do or die. SO DO IT.

One more week of madness before I go for an awesome 3 week break. I really need the rest. School has barely started actually. Already feeling the weight on my shoulders. Maybe what Yanlin did was right - to quit the job. That might just perhaps be my first step to getting better grades and focusing on my studies. How to let go of money I ask you? Am so tied to money, I cannot give it up this easily.

Guide me someone?

We Can Still Play Pretend

2011-05-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

Taking a break from the insane amount of work that is piling up on me. I blame myself for letting the amount of work pile, for procrastinating and for putting it off every single day. No one else to blame but myself. But hey, I am still pretty much alive and I hope it stays this way.

Last night, I stayed up till 3am doing my work, and I am proud to say I managed to strike 3 things off my to-do list. Not to forget one episode of The Mentalist and I have to say this SIMON BAKER IS SO AWESOME. He got the wittiness, the guts and the charm. Packed all in one man. Yum. Okay maybe I should stop.

As you can see, I am really lazy to continue about my HK trip. Been almost 2 months that I am back already so I shall just leave it there. Day 4 we walked around the same places and shopped a lot.. again. What girls do best ^^

Now it is back to my restaurant review and I am determined to complete it by tonight. Interview on Thursday - wish me luck please! God bless me.

HONGKONG DAY 3

2011-05-05T23:43:00.008+08:00

Day 3 started off very cold. We took the MTR to Hongkong Island, Sheung Wan MTR Station and was trying very hard to find Jervois Street which serves awesome claypot rice with beef and egg. We found the place in the end but it was closed down to our dismay. Across the street was this little cafe called Miu Miu cafe if I am not wrong so we settled there to eat. Photos taken along the way.

Finally settled down for breakfast!

Yummy-licious food :)

Opposite the cafe was this little dim sum shop so we decided to hop over to have some more food and we had to try the dim sum in HK.

This is how cheap the dim sum is. HKD65 is like SGD10? HOW CHEAP IS THAT.

Slurps looking at the food it is making me hungry

After that we embarked on our mission to find Queen's Road! About 15mins walk which was not too bad. Walked from 1 MTR station to the other. So proud of myself. Pictures snapped along the way

And finally at H&M!!!!! 4 STORIES OF AWESOME-NESS

After shopping we headed to Times Square where we lepak-ed at Ben & Jerry's and used their free wifi.

Genelle facetiming with her fwen

Crowds... as usual. Common sight in HK!

Wanted to eat at Modern Toilet Restaurant but it was closed too?! How suay day-of-cannot-find-food. Settled for some Korean BBQ!!

Free hugs without shoes = hug cute guy without shoes ^^

Long day at HK island! But so much shopping it was fun :D

Silence May Kill

2011-05-01T00:56:00.002+08:00

I feel so lazy to continue blogging about my HK trip. 3 more days, 3 more days. I will just do it some other day. Not now, I need to go to bed soon.

School reopened after 2 months of holidays. The holidays are way too short, 2 months might seem like a long time but boy how time flies. In the blink of an eye, the holidays have ended. It was good while it lasted.

I thought about OSIP. Have yet to talk to my parents about it but I think it would be good if I think through it more. Good opportunity and exposure, definitely. Cost-wise, it shouldn't be a problem. My crappy GPA and the fact that I took a supp paper before is stopping me from venturing out. I do have job experience which would definitely help me but how much can it help me? Why does the future look so bleak but bright at the same time?

The job is also another thing. I've worked at Brewerkz for a good 11 months already. It seems like the right time to quit but how do you put something like this down? I don't entirely hate my job, nor do I really like it. The work environment is great, everyone is friendly and nice (with the exception of a few bastards and bitches) and the tips are a plus! I get to see people from all walks of life but what really is making me stay are the people. They've been such a nice bunch for the past 11 months, how do you erase them from your life just like that?

Sometimes I just hate to grow old. So many decisions you have to make.

HONGKONG DAY 2

2011-04-26T21:32:00.006+08:00

Day 2, we woke up a little early and went to the shopping centre nearby, Grand Century Plaza to have breakfast at Cafe De Coral which was EVERYWHERE in HK.

So here's my breakfast set that looks good but honestly it isn't. Hahaha measly amount of egg and the sausages taste different and they are not fat! How can sausages not be fat!!!

Along that bridge again hahaha

Monki!!!

HK-ers are all already outside even before H&M is open

Outside Langham Place's H&M :) With my birks.. Haha

The fitting room queue... mad

Lunch at some cafe

Followed by some awesome Honeymoon Dessert that I am so glad Genelle introduced me to!!!

Along the streets where it is packed like crazy too

Fa Yuen Street which I didn't take much pictures of

Awesome food stall that was at the corner of the street beside Fa Yuen

THAT THING Sausage wrapped in bacon was the most heavenly thing on Earth, honestly!! It wasn't really piping hot so it was quite a pity but if it is so good when it is warm, what more when it is HOT OMG

Toilet shots that I missed out in Day 1 hahaha Mmmm so that's day 2

Blogging about it makes me want to go back to HK. Never mind, next stop - BKK!

HONGKONG DAY1

2011-04-20T23:07:00.005+08:00

Finally blogging about the trip. Jetstar there! Terminal 1 for boarding. BK breakfast and part of the fam sent me off.

On board the plane!

Got upgraded to a deluxe room because the hotel was too packed. Really nice and spacious room. Thumbs up for Royal Plaza Hotel! Window overlooking the swimming pool so Genelle and I took turns looking out for cute guys (which disappointed us real badly) Okay was kidding about the taking turns part

Along the oh-so-familiar bridge that we walk every single day

Their MTR super atas

Dinner on the first night, couldn't find the restaurant so we settled for something that sounds similar which was yummy! Genelle's roasted pork with noodles was good and my beef brisket noodle was another plus point!

Along Nathan Road, Tsim Sha Tsui

The Peninsula is so beautiful I'm going to stay there someday

Victoria Harbour with its beautiful lights and smelly river skyline was breathtaking though

Mmmm First Class MTR

Genelle packed fish crackers there lasted us for 3 nights?

Instax collection from day 1!

Shall blog about Day 2 soon when I have the mood hehe

800th Say Goodbye to my Heart tonight

2011-04-18T01:01:00.003+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog about HK, but I want to record it down. Someday, someday I will do it.

I lost my blogging vibe anyway. Quick updates.

Been real busy with church stuff.
Work, as usual.
Am having my period. Blood.
Work again tomorrow.
Good Friday is coming!
I am tired.
School is reopening in one week. Orhbiquek to those not studying in TP. Kidding.
I love The Mentalist.
Finally met Melody last week
Driving 3 days straight last week
Drove and went to work for full shifts GOSH
I have no idea what to type already
Met my girls too for what else but food
Maybe it is time for me to sleep

GOOD NIGHT

HI BEST ZZ SHERVIN AMANDA WONG IF YOU'RE READING THIS I MISS YOU ALL HELL LOADS

HONG KONG

2011-04-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Hong Kong bitches!! Will blog about it soon :) HK is so awesome!

Picture With a Kodak

2011-04-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

Wednesday night party all my troubles away! It was a fun night with my girls :) They tolerated all of my nonsense that night, hahaha all my blabbers about how much I love them and all the kisses I planted on their cheeks. Thank you babies!

Stayed up till 6am and slept only at 8.30am, woke up and off to work! Work was so torturous, my knee was hurting like a bitch. I aggravated the situation of my knee, it was bad enough, and I just had to make it worst. Yay me I swear. How to walk the streets of HK?!

Just one more day to HK. Actually I don't even feel prepared for this trip but whatever, so long as I'm getting out of this country!!!!!!! FYEAH HONGKONG HERE I COME.

Tell Me What You Want to Hear

2011-03-29T01:12:00.003+08:00

Blogging, once again.

0127AM - Listening to All of The Lights. Realise I'm always ALWAYS listening to something. I do this when I'm bored. Good for you if you can infer I'M BORED NOW. Therefore I blog. Am a tad hungry too, kinda regret not eating the ramly burger the brother-ship bought for me.

Six more days to Hong Kong bitches. Six more days to sitting on a plane and jetting out of this country. Well-deserved holiday for me, definitely. Temperatures are dropping anyway, I really can't wait! All the shopping and good food, I'm going to stuff myself with lots of food. Have yet to pack my luggage though, shall pack it on Wednesday.

Oh and Wednesday, another break for me ^^ Can't wait too! This week is too good, starting off work for the first two days of the week, party and back to work for a short 5 hour shift and finally jetting off! Great way to end off the week :)

We're Going Down

2011-03-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

1251AM

Looking through my pictures in the hard disk and came across little Kiera being so happy when I gave her these Cotton On fairy wings. How adorable, but I don't even know where it is now.

Sitting down at my table, plugged in to Lady Gaga's Born This Way. Worrying about my FTT this Friday. Haven't studied much, but everyone is assuring me it will be easy. Cannot help but worry though I am not doing much. I am really tired after working with only 4 hours of sleep. I can't get to sleep now though.

Am hungry, the stomach is growling. Craving for some prata, and hokkien mee, and lor mee, and Macs' double cheeseburger.

Should probably crash cause there's work at 10am tomorrow.

This is how long my hair was. Now it can barely even touch my neck. Goodness me, what did I do to my hair? I felt like I screwed my hair, just want to shave it so that it will grow out evenly from now on.

If Heartache was a Physical Pain, I Could Face It

2011-03-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I blew $20 on dim sum, $28 on my haircut (That many commented had no difference zzz), $12 at Fat Boys for a Wimpy Burger and $5.60 at Scoopz for some waffle ice cream which was so delicious.

It was money well spent, though I kinda hate Shervin for the stupid dim sum, Chinatown serves better and cheaper dim sum! Bugis for my $28 dollar hair cut which I honestly felt was a rip off but well, my hair is much lighter and neater now. A different hairstylist commented I ought to go for soft rebonding. Hmmmmm.

Thomson for some good food aka Fat Boys and Scoopz! Fat Boys is awesome, the portion was huge but it was real good. Real good deal too! Only $12 for my burger (even cheaper than the dim sum).

Scoopz for dessert! Rum & Raisin ice cream, so yummy! Definitely going back to Thomson for more good food hehe. Glutton.

Today Genelle and I sat at Starbucks planning our HK itinerary! Though I came home finding out even more information that we missed out, I still can't wait! All my lovely outfits and food ^^ But the temperatures are rising, so I hope they will drop soon, pretty pretty please God? :)

0248

2011-03-19T02:48:00.002+08:00

I am still awake, at my study table. Hungry, tired and lazy. My fringe is clipped up, hair behind the ears. I couldn't find my hairband earlier on, so I'm using the clip. Listening to Glee's version of Misery by Maroon 5, which sounds really good by the way. Especially when it is Misery, I love the song.

Feels kinda good to type that minute down. Not something that I do often, but I can try. Just cracked my neck and it feels so good by the way.

Hong Kong in about 2 more weeks, I seriously cannot wait to get out of this country. Then it would be 5 awesome days of food and clothes and basically growing fat. I must stop eating from now on. So that I can eat as much over at HK. Oh and I need to change money soon. Finally, a break, a well-deserved break.

I need to dance. Bye.

Spread Your Wings

2011-03-13T12:00:00.002+08:00

They told me to dream. Dare to dream big. Go forth and do what you dream to do. Do not let anything stop you. I still don't know what's my dream though. Yea of course, being a taitai is one. How about a really realistic one? Are there any? Short-term goals turning into long-term goals. Hate dreaming sometimes.

This post is so pointless. I'm posting for the sake of.....nothing.

I FEEL GOOD

2011-03-03T00:46:00.002+08:00

I feel good na na na na na~~~~ Exams are over!!!! End of junior year provided I don't fail anything. Crossing my fingers that I will pass all my subjects! Feels really good to be so carefree and the feeling of having nothing to do is so so so liberating. Nothing to do at.all. No feeling like shit-I-have-yet-to-study, no feeling like shit-I-do-not-have-enough-time WOOOOHOOOO. Before the paper, I told Sammy, Gwen and Vivian that I might even cry after I handed in the paper. Thank God I did not, it would have been embarrassing if I did.

For now, I cannot wait to go to HK and shop and eat like crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M GOING MAD FOR REAL. GET ME OUT OF THE COUNTRY PLEASE.

Help Yourself

2011-02-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

It is not even funny anymore. Accounting in less than 24 hours and I feel so damn useless. Like I don't even understand a single shit. At this instant, I am even considering taking the supp paper instead. It beats all the misery I have to see when I get back my results and the "F" stares right at me. This is the first time I feel so helples about an examination. No one can help me here. No one. So helpless and lost.

Damn it.

There's a World Out There We Should See

2011-02-25T14:45:00.002+08:00

Time of the month to bid it goodbye. February is coming to an end and hello March! Why is 2011 so quick? Is it because the world is ending? Kidding. In the midst of exams now. One down - CRS, which hmm was relatively okay I guess. Gonna start on Accounting once I am done with this blog post.

Loads of pictures and loads of things happened but I am just going to post one! A picture with my girls at Moviemob. It was on Valentine's Day, and they were showing 500 Days of Summer. Besides the fact that Joseph Gordon-Levitt and the ever so beautiful Zooey Deschanel in it, I think the show is pretty much meh after the first time.

This is us. So cute. Awwwww. How adorable seriously. Other people got 1 valentine, I got 3!!! Really, I love us. This reminds me that I never had a guy best friend?! Hahaha I think a guy best friend is fun! Who wanna be my guy best friendddddd.

Back to accounting and yet another lonely session of SOL.........................................

2011-02-22T09:53:00.005+08:00

I put so much on my "To-Do List" all the time. Things like clearing the table, clear out the wardrobe, read more books etc. These stay on the list all the time. Every time I made my to-do list. The must-haves. One of them that always stays and never seem to go is actually "Get your life back on track." This, this is a "need-to".

"F"

2011-02-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

In my life, there have been many times that I have experienced failure. Since I was 11 in fact. I remembered clearly the first time I failed. It was a Higher Mother Tongue paper. When I received the paper I stared at it for a long time and held my tears. I went home, bathed, hid behind my kitchen door and started to cry. My family members were asking where was I but I just kept crying behind the kitchen door. It was the very first time I experienced failure. My parents hugged me and said it was alright to fail, which I took it real seriously from then on.

Ever since that incident, every failure to me was nothing. It became a norm for me and I ought to feel ashamed of myself. My multiple failures had never affected anyone. Not until last Thursday. I failed terribly. Failed to play my part, failed to identify my gaps, failed to see that it was lacking of things. Failed. Like as if the letter "F" was staring at you, telling you non-stop that you've failed, right in your face.

I've let everyone down. Including my parents. It is the first time that I encountered this kind of a failure. The kind of failure where not only you are affected, but the people around you are pulled down together. Not a good kind of feeling, but I have to pull through. Stay strong Emma. You have only yourself to depend on.

Accounting 101

2011-02-15T14:50:00.002+08:00

Hi. I'm currently in accounting lecture now. It is really boring so I'm here. Try to updated blog, revive it. Anyway it is 3 more days till the end of school. Not exactly the end of school but close. It's the study week so ya, I have to study. Oh well. My grades hasn't been fantastic but at least I'm passing everything. Which is good by my standards I guess. I really have no idea what the lecturer is talking about. Why am I even here in the lecture? Thought she might decide to change and make her lessons more interesting but apparently not. I'm falling asleep but I don't want to sleep because it will be so embarrassing!!!! Really feel like. Sleeping though. Yawns.

Dry Your Tears

2011-02-04T21:33:00.004+08:00

This picture is actually quite ancient, I met Akina Love quite a while back already! It is our first meeting in so long but we talked like there was no tomorrow. Gossiping about so many people and all the things that used to happen. The good old times that I will never ever forget. We had a post-birthday celebration for her too and it was my treat since I haven't seen her in the longest time. Headed to Strictly Pancakes at Prinsep Street for some filling dinner!

Over to Rochor beancurd for some awesome tauhuey before lepak-ing at Wilkie Edge's Starbucks. Those were the days where all was carefree and we had so much fun together. I still vividly remember her attempt at cheering me up by doing her cute signature penguin walk! Awwwww :') Missing you already Love.

February is here. Thank God, but now just one more week of presentation and I am almost done with Year 2. This one week is going to be another period of mad rush because all my presentations are packed in a week. All 4, yes. I really can't wait for the next week to be over. Too much weighing on the shoulders. CNY has been awesome so far, minus the "praises" that I get from my see-them-once-in-a-year-relatives. Besides that, CNY has been fun! Will blog more, I'm getting lazier and lazier. Apple ought to come up with an app for Blogger! BlackBerry should too. Okay I'm just too lazy. Back to Microsoft Powerpoint now. Ohh how much I love PPTs.

Sleeping Patterns

2011-01-27T13:46:00.005+08:00

So guess what came in the mail last week! Been anticipating its arrival for the entire weekend!

That was before I cleared my old iTouch. Now I have a spanking new iTouch that can take awesome pictures! Genelle helped me to order it on Friday and it came in the mail on Monday night! Efficient.

Because it was during the project week, I had to wait till the end of the week before I indulged myself in the new iTouch. Cannot be happier. It has been working well and I've showered it with so much love. Have yet to download more apps, wait till the very end of this week I can throw confetti in the air and celebrate. It marks the end of the 2 disgusting weeks of project submission. Finally!

I'll blog more when the submission is all over! More pictures coming up! Plus there is a chalet this weekend yay perfect way to celebrate :)

784 Spas?

2011-01-24T01:14:00.001+08:00

What CRS does to you at 0115h on a Monday morning. Aiming to complete by 0200.

Thoughts during a Run

2011-01-18T19:04:00.003+08:00

Run - To go quickly by moving the legs more rapidly than at a walk and in such a manner that for an instant in each step all or both feet are off the ground.

So, I just came back from a run. It was a combination of running and walking. I would describe my run as something that I needed, it is not even because I felt the urge to, but I really needed to run. Running takes my mind off things, I get more relaxed and then I start to appreciate the little details around.

I ran around my estate, was close to getting lost but thank God my brain has a GPS system of its own. I saw what the neighbours do, what domestic helpers did at the porch, what dogs did when no one else was at home.

During this run, I brought along my old iPod, an iPod shuffle that was the size of my thumb. It played the old songs that I have and brought me so much memories. Memories of semester 1.1. How ancient.

The first song to play was Break Your Heart by Taio Cruz ft. Ludacris. It is such an ancient song. Though I still have it in my current iPod. It got me in my momentum and I started running. Then I thought of BGR, something that only Ele, Kelly and I would know. Do you girls still remember? It was like in year 1. Haha damn random I know but it just suddenly popped up. I also thought of project meetings in Year 1. It was so easy, so carefree. We can joke and play and fool around during project meetings. Now it's so tough and we have to be so analytical about every single thing.

Thought about our 3 hours breaks too. We have like 2 of them a week? And most of the time, H12 would just sit as a class or rather, just the girls and lepak. Oh the good times. We would people watch sitting at our Happy Birthday table and talk. Sometimes watch some movies, surf the net, stalk people on Facebook etc. Really miss those times. So relaxing and happy.

A lot of thoughts ran through my mind but I cannot really remember all. Most of it were my memories when I was Year 1. Guess that is the most unforgettable period of my poly years so far. When my iPod played Fire Burning by Sean Kingston, can't help but remember Wan Leng in Sabah trip singing it in the shower! So funny and it was loud and clear because there was only Kelly and I in the room with her. Hilarious.

So much memories. The good times, I want it all back. :(

Life of a HTM-er

2011-01-14T02:26:00.003+08:00

This week has been hell and crazy. I've never been so drained my entire life. Almost like on the brink of exhaustion but you really cannot go there, you can't ever venture beyond this line. Not because you don't want to - you cannot afford to.

After these 2 weeks, I will open champagne and celebrate. Celebrate myself for pulling through these 2 weeks and probably go roll around the grass in Botanical Gardens and jump around like a crazy woman. It's just 2 more weeks, I'll make it right?

Can't help it but cry. As I lay in my bed just now, tears just couldn't stop falling. Life is too short for tears SUCK IT UP. Washed up, bathed and prepared for battle. Going to war soon. Wish me luck.

781 11:07PM

2011-01-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK

Bidding Farewell

2011-01-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

2010 came and went. Too quickly. My life is moving too quickly.

So in 2010, I got past Year 1 of Poly life. Like finally. I'm one step closer to the end of my education path. Never liked the idea of school because we're just spending more money with every day that I spend in school. Sorry but I'd rather go out there and work. Don't get why adults say we must treasure our school life. Honestly, I don't. If you like it so much, just don't work and continue studying. Don't give me crap about oh I need the money. Whatever. Year 2 is actually coming to an end too. Wow. Time really flies.

In 2010, I slogged my guts out and dreaded/loved every Wednesday. It was fun, but it was hell too. Got past SSM too! And got a B+ for that ^^ Headwaiter on the second week was no fun at all, but Ele and I got through it! FYEAH. It sucked for a while until the end, everything was just so fun! Missing SSM actually. Only hate the gel and uniform, experience was wonderful.

Met up with my lovely swimmers too. Love it how we can crap so much and talk about anything under the sun even if we didn't meet for so long. Time spent with them can never get better. Such awesome people and such awesome time spent too. Thank you girls for bringing so much joy to my life. So glad we met up twice this year. More to come, definitely! IJ friends are friends for life.

Had an awesome trip to Sabah. Sabah is one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen. The fireflies, the environment and what is the most important thing is the company. I will always remember our teeko joke, Kelly. Nothing beats that, it really is the ultimate. Even till now, we still joke about it. Ahh Sabah trip. Really missing it. When I get the chance, I shall go back there again!

Bought myself an itouch. I've never regretted buying it, except times when I have to do my work but it distracts me. And I thought of a name for it already! Spongebob, since it is yellow. My laptop is Patrick, cause it is pink. Hahaha I'm so gay but whatever. The itouch definitely kept me happy.

Another gadget I bought was the DSLR. I've never loved the camera so much. It takes such clear and nice pictures and I absolutely love it. Only the weight of it bothers me. But for nice pictures, that is the price to pay. Falling in love with pictures once again.

Had my 18th birthday. Can't believe I'm 18 already, seriously. I still feel so young and so.......young. 18 is like so old, or rather I'm going to hit the big 2 soon. Goodness, time really really flies.

Went back to church and had a new cell. Feels good to be back with the Lord again. Things went smoothly for me too. Thank God that He never gave up on me. I may have backslided so many times but He is still always there for me. Indeed, the greatest of these is Love.

Got a job. A job at Brewerkz. Wow. Never thought I would school and work at the same time but I did it. It's good, I think I juggled it well? Haha my grades are still a joke because of my very first semester but I'm not going to a university, so who cares. Made loads of friends and it really exposed me. It has been a good 6 to 7 months there. Wow I'm amazed really.

Cut my hair. Biggest change of my appearance throughout the entire year. My hair was long, real long. Almost at my waist? Or even longer than that and now it is above my neck. It can't even reach my neck. Loving the new hair but missing the old hair too. Then again, hair will grow so fret not!

I conquered 2010. I CONQUERED 2010. 2011, BRING IT ON.

Too many things happened in 2010. I might edit this post again. We'll see.

You Are Your Worst Enemy

2010-12-28T22:06:00.018+08:00

Okay finally! The USS blog post is up! Hahaha and this is damn long ago? Like even before I cut my hair. Wow. I'm so slow and laggy. Anyway, USS was amazing! The place is so pretty and big and the rides are so fun! Especially the mummy ride, I sat that like for 6 times? Haha 5 times in a row. Yes we just kept going back in. And there was this one time when I came out of the ride into the souvenir store, the Egyptian "mummy" scared me. HAHAHA OMG I THOUGHT HE WAS A STATUE TILL HE BOO-ED. I screamed like crazy and was laughing so hard at myself after that.

Ahhh the day was so many weeks ago but the memories are still so vivid! Just shows how awesome USS really is. Thanks to Dad's company we got free tickets hehe. ^^ Halfway through, Julian & Keira came to join us too. Brought so much joy and pain to the entire thing too. Glad we all had fun though! Will definitely go back once Battlestar is open! :)

Love my face, don't you? ^^

The Pap-sy and the Mom-sy!

Brought my film cameras but didn't get to finish the roll! I really hope they will turn out fine :(

Tourist yo! Stupid extra.....

Kungfu Panda!

This is a very failed Betty Boop hahahaha

Woody Woodpecker's wife??

Frankenstein!

Went into some theatre to watch a live show! Some concert thing, I can't remember.

Haha so cute right they both so excited! No one to take picture for me :(

Wah cleavage ^^

HAHA AMIDST ALL THE OTHER TOURISTS

Pap!!

I try, I try...............

So they joined us!! Hehehehe xiaoboyboy~~

So irritating right, the stoned face

The two with the huge bellies hehehe

Xiaomeimei so ke ai!!!!

AHHHHHhhhh she melts my heart lovelove

And we queued for 45mins for this. Sigh one round nia but windy and shiok!!

Forced to sit with the xiaoboyboy

Hehe sissy took care of them while LiZhen, Ashley & I sat the mummy ride non-stop! Waiting time was only 5mins so why not right haha.

Stupid Julian, look at his stupid face!! Hahaha epic.

Pap was so sweet. He didn't want to sit the rides and had to help push the pram the entire day!

Probably enjoying himself cause he was beside my boobs..... SI TEEKO

HAHAHAHA SERIOUSLY

Finally done with the USS post! No words can describe how nice and cool USS is. I don't mind staying/working there. So fun!!

So anyway quick update! Halfway through the 2 week break and I really can't wait to start school. Ya right... Hate school like crazy. Damn this shit because I have to let this piece of cert rule my life. Seriously?! Okay enough said - SCHOOL SUCKS.

Gonna complete some school work before going to sleep.... I'm really dreading it. :(

Change is the only Constant

2010-12-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

Common phrase - Change is the only constant. We make a lot of changes to our lives often. Changing the time we set our alarms, changing the number of times we snooze it, changing our clothes, changing our toothbrushes, changing everything in life. To do what we do best; Change for the better.

We like to experiment too, so that is why we change. After all, how many times do you get to experiment with things in your life? Everything takes time! So when it is time, I chopped the bulk of my hair off. No more long wavy hair, no more braids (Which I am extremely depressed about but I choose not to think about it), no more hair to tie, no more hair to pull, nothing!

When the hairdresser snipped it off to shoulder length for me to wash my hair, I thought it looked nice and the head felt so much lighter too! Then she went on to snip some more.. after blow-drying it turned out quite nice! I have to say, I kinda like my new hair but I cannot stand the fact that my hair will curl. It is very annoying. But whatever, I'm gonna leave it as it is. Shan't spend more money on my hair. And this is how it looks like:

It is for the better, definitely. I feel so much better and surprisingly, I got used to it really quickly! People say I'll miss my long hair and all, but I don't feel anything. Or maybe it just hasn't hit me yet. Whatever it is, I like it now and that is all the matters. In case you don't know, my left side is longer than my right. Now I can't wait to dye my hair!

Leave A Good Looking Corpse

2010-12-10T17:44:00.002+08:00

School is over, for a short term break. It feels like I can finally catch up with myself, catch up with life and most importantly, breathe. Since the start of the school term, I can only recall myself travelling to Sentosa almost every single day, heading back to TP for a few times, struggling to meet deadlines, research on projects that seems endless, and feeling really lost. School this semester sucks. Time passes so quickly. I don't even know what is going on, only being very drained by school and at times work.

Haven't been working a lot too. I hate myself for being so lousy at time management. I need to learn to manage my time well. Such a failure at life. Seriously. Every semester I see myself torturing myself by rushing or like what I like to say/do, chiong. I hate myself for chionging now. Need to stop chionging. Slow my life down and get a grip on it. Take control of it.

Am still glad that half a semester is over. For now, I need to focus on getting my life back on track and really breathe. Abrupt end here - I need to get out of house.

Quit Thinking, Start Doing

2010-12-06T10:24:00.004+08:00

Last Monday, exactly one week ago, we celebrated Wan Leng's birthday at Brewerkz aka my workplace. So surprise went quite successful since Wan Leng didn't suspect a thing! Which was awesome. Hahaha I tried the massive pork knuckle and I couldn't finish it. Too huge a portion but it was nice!! Definitely going to eat it again, maybe for my lunch someday ^^

Bartender gave her some shots to down and surprisingly, she was not THAT wasted. Hahaha it was evident she was high but she managed to control. Headed home early because we all have 9am lessons the next day. Spoiler. Good time spent with everyone though!

Cool, it's 10:58 now. Woke up at 7:42, nua on bed till 8:44, sat in front of my laptop since 9:27 and no work has been done. Oh no, I did. I typed "Cultures of Cambodia". Yay me!

Live Fast, Die Young

2010-11-28T23:57:00.004+08:00

Time of the year again! Gwen's birthday. Memories of her 17th birthday is still etched in my mind, where the H12 girls all wore what Gwen hated the most - HTM shirt and FBTs with slippers as well. Ultimate fail outfit. But this year, we celebrated at Kiseki! Food there is awesome. Not much pictures of food because we were busy gobbling up the food, or rather, I was. Food there was awesome!!!!! Mmmm can taste the sashimi in my mouth. Oh oh and the tofu cheese cake! Hahaha what a pity I don't have a lot of money now after not working for so long. So can't spend like how I used to. Ahhh okay okay pictures time!

LAURY IS WEARING A DRESS

A DRESS A DRESS A DRESS

And I braided my hair the other day hair hairband :)

Happy Birthday Gwen! Hope you had an awesome day :) And it's 12:18am now, happy birthday Wan Leng!! Hehe she's gonna get wastedddddd.

Do a post about USS soon!

Pop goes the weasel

2010-11-26T08:34:00.002+08:00

Real quick update before I leave house to print my reports.

IT IS FRIDAY BITCHES. Finally. I can now throw confetti in the air and open a bottle of champagne. I struggled to get through this week okay. Spent most of my time on my reports. Hope I did it right anyway. And I had to battle with my eyelids every night because they just love to close. THEY JUST LOVE IT. So finally submission day is here!! Can finally heave a sigh of relief. And breathe.

Gwen's birthday was yesterday and we had a great time celebrating it. From shouting "Happy birthday Gwen!" at the MRT station to slipping the Dorothy Perkins bag into her bag. Hahaha love the girls. Next up, Wan Leng's birthday! Which means I get to see my all time favourite Kelly-Anne! Time to leave the house. Will blog about Gwen's birthday soon :)

2010-11-20T10:34:00.002+08:00

"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste you lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross."

-Ellen Pompeo, Grey's Anatomy

Update

2010-11-11T23:53:00.002+08:00

Haven't done a wordy post in a long time. Shall do it now since I have some time to spare.

Projects from school been streaming in. Already into the 3rd week of school but I still feel kinda lost sometimes. Like when the tutor is rambling on about the project I am totally clueless because I have yet to look through the project brief. Or rather, the individual assignments. Speaking of which, I have an assignment to look forward to! Presentation in front of the class, for 20mins, about an article which has yet to be uploaded online. Woohoo awesome or what. And I'm the first person next week. Yay. So excited for it.

Work has been reduced a lot. I only work like 10 hours a week now?! How to maintain my bank like that. Signing up for driving is going to drain my bank account like mad. Plus my tips these few days are like pathetic. Are people too poor now? Come on tip me more!! Work always take my mind off things. But I haven't been concentrating a lot at work these days. What is wrong with me. Maybe it's not me it's the supervisor eh? They should honestly fire some of them.

Enough talk about school and work. I need a break. Just one day only. I can't squeeze any time in. There are a lot of church events recently too. Everything is consuming so much time. Where can I find space to breathe.

Oh a happier note, I am meeting Best and ZZ this Saturday! Excited! Already decided on the place to eat. Hehehe. And I miss my friends too. Shervin, Melody, Yenton and Akina, if you're reading this, I just wanna say I miss you a lot. :'(

Whip out them shades and fans

2010-11-09T19:41:00.019+08:00

After such a long break I'm back bitches! So... school has started! Third week into school and I am still trying to adapt. Adapt to TAS, adapt to the environment, adapt to the new class etc. But lucky me has got Ele + Gwen with me!! Thank God.

Timetable is kinda all right, just that I can hardly work now. Only during Saturdays. Sometimes I can sometimes I can't. Which is a good thing too, I get more rest. But it sucks too because now my bank accounting is depleting. And I just signed up for driving. Woah say goodbye to my money. Deposited 500 into the school account. OMG MAN.

Speaking of which, I'VE FINALLY SIGNED FOR BTT Y'ALL!! It's next year so I still have a bit of time to learn all my stuff. Note to self: Sign up for e-trials online soon.

Last Tuesday saw us being tourists at Resorts World. Failed tourist much. Where got tourist wear dress & cardigan?? Still had a fun time with the girls! Cheese and caramel popcorn from Garrett mmmm. Cravings for it now. Pik-cha time!!!!!

Model liao.

The girls outside Candylicious.

Iconic globe.

Cute boh. I suggested the pose.

Garrett popcorn WHO CAN RESISTTT

Really in luv with my boots~~

Woohoo Garrett popcorn! Can't stop raving about how awesome it is.

Compare 2 pictures below!

End of with a shot in the toilet. HAHAHAHAHAH. GIRLS.

Time for me to go back to hibernation. Damn flu making my entire life miserable. Grrrrrr. Update more when I have the time!

The life is slowly slipping away

2010-10-26T15:34:00.027+08:00

Aight so I said I will blog about Sammy's chalet. Been about 2 weeks since her chalet have passed but better late than never! :) Some pictures from the entire album.

Compare the 2 pictures below!!

They're smiling so nicely and I am the only enthusiastic one.

The other way round! Funny eh. HAHAH.

And then we started trying Kelly's fake bangs :)

Time to cut my fringe? ^^

Sammy's relatives smashed cake on her face so Ele and Vivian helped her clean up!! Awww.

Group shot

Group hug!!!!

And in the night, we built a fort out of sheets. :)

Some playground fun before heading to sing K!! I have never been a fan of karaoke nor have I even sang it before. Never knew it would be so fun. Everyone getting high just by singing. Hahahaha first time and it was so awesome.

Drinking games in the night and my bladder was close to bursting. Thank God I got the card in the nick of time if not whoo! HAHAHAHAHA.

Punishment where you're supposed to kiss the person on your left after you drink a cup. So sweet right. :D

Elephant punishment. Hahaha funny.

That roughly sums of Sammy's chalet! Real fun and quality time spent with the girls. I really want to go for another chalet. Or overseas with the girls. I need to spend some time relaxing. A picnic or what. Just need to relax. For a day.

So Many Wars We Fight

2010-10-18T23:45:00.015+08:00

This is the yellow-skinned me. Apologise if you got a shock. Because of my beauty. Oops. So while waiting for the hair to dry I'm thinking of blogging. In case you're wondering why my eye one big one small, it is because it is beautiful like that. Too bad if you don't like it.

Finally met up with Jessica after so long! It's like we meet up during the holidays only. It's okay at least we do meet up! Roamed around town in the evening. Was so hungry, headed to Swensen's to eat. And we were so bloated after that. Good food :) Thank you 1000 for your voucher!

Mushroom burger mmmm.

All time favourite fries!!

Will blog about Sammy's chalet soon! For now I shall catch some sleep and get a life tomorrow.

Kiss Winter Goodbye

2010-10-17T00:43:00.007+08:00

Been a long time since I last typed here. Busy with work, chalet and staying home on the off days lately. Tired and everything but I must hang in there. Just one more week. It's not a lot but it sure is going to be tough. So recent happenings!

Cindy's 18th at Food For Thought. Food is marvellous. Thinking about it makes my mouth water now. Milkshake - Awesome.

Then I think about a week ago, the best friend and I visited Sentosa! For a recee around TAS too. It's a nice place to be at, definitely, but the island feel will make my grades dip even further for sure. Have.to.work.hard.next.semester. Before every semester I tell myself that and at the end of it, nothing happens. I am only waiting for miracles to happen.

Very short update with pictures! It's very hard to update with pictures now on Blogger. Oh well. Shall turn in soon since there's church tomorrow. And the weather is really very warm nowadays. Temperature going up up and away~~~

2010-10-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

It's so scary sometimes you don't know to cry, to hide or to laugh. Things like these are so sudden. They just hit you instantly, leaving you speechless. I don't know what else to say, but take care my friend. X

Recently

2010-09-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

1. I've been catching up with Big Bang Theory and finished it!

2. Watched a hell lot of movies and shows (On the bus)

3. Worked

4. Gotten back the results PASSED ACCOUNTING YIPEE

5. Been writing to God

6. Been attending cell and church more often

7. Using the itouch more than the laptop because it is so convenient

8. Bought durian mooncake for the family ^^

9. Went for a run

10. Grew darker eye rings

I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. I have to make time to meet up with my friends. Okay bye.

These Memories, They Keep Haunting Me

2010-09-21T20:16:00.027+08:00

Vivian recently uploaded pictures of the Sabah trip onto Facebook and I remember myself saying I would blog about it! So here I am :) Although I think hardly anyone reads this now. Okay so here it goes!

Day 1: On the way to Sabah!

Sat Silkair there

Hehe window seats for me!!

Night market there.

Random kids who were so curious about the DSLR. Haha.

Day 2!!
Group shot in the room :)

Breakfast view!!

Most favourite shot out of the entire trip. It's like capturing the moment.

Secret Recipe: Our favourite desert place.

Dinner with cultural show.

Day 3:

At the university~

I was the hair braider of the day. Should have charged them I would have earned at least 300ringgit and bought more stuff!

Sutera Harbour Resort wheeeee

Parasailing! I want too!!

Buffet ^^

Went off for boat ride! Saw meow meow.

Missing my boyf :(

B-e-a-u-tiful sunset!

Day 4:
Hilltop at I forgot where we went HAHA

Meow meow again!

Wasted our stupid money on looking at stupid Rafflesia that did not even stink?!

Sunset so nice right something you won't see in SG!

Day 5 (Last day!):

Some damn shiok mee we had for breakfast!

Back in Singapore! :)

And the rest are from my digital camera Hahaha.

Okay very very summarised blog post about Sabah. All the pictures are on Facebook details are there too as well! Kay I shall go back to watching my shows :) Love staying home just to watch shows. ^^

Head Back to Sleep Baby

2010-09-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hi to all my ke ai readers. I'm blogging only because I do not feel like studying. Actually I can just not take the exam and still pass my paper so I don't know why am I even studying for it. Hmm am actually quite tired now, and I feel like sleeping. Plus even if I stay up, it wouldn't mean that I would study. I've got on pictures to upload because I'm blogging from my itouch so I'm just going to bore you with more words. If you don't like it, easy - just get lost.

I'm still contemplating if I should just go to sleep. Hmmmmm. Oh and I hate my itouch. It ALWAYS distracts me from doing work. In 3 hours that I am with my notes, I spend 2 hours with my itouch. Therefore I'm actually progressing damn slowly when I'm doing work. Sigh. I want to find something that I love doing. Not studying definitely. I've been thinking a lot about what I'm going to do when I graduate from poly lately. What kind of job am I going to look for? Am I really not going to uni? Who would want yo hire me then? I want to work and earn big bucks but where am I going to find a company that would hire me and let me earn loads of money? Yes I am money-faced like that $.$

okay I shall finish up 2 chapters of TTO then read through a bit of marketing before heading to sleep. See you after the exams!

You're Amazing

2010-09-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

Am on the bus on my way home and the bus just passed by National Museum of Singapore. It reminded me of the time when I was meeting my GTT groupmates and we were supposed to go to SAM, but I got it wrong and headed to NMS instead. I remembered standing at the traffic light and it started to drizzle. But I had no umbrella or whatsoever with me. Then this guy came and cover me with his umbrella and asked where I was heading to. I said the NMS and he was like, "Oh! It's on the way I was just going to church and it's just up the hill. Since I'm early for church, I don't mind going to the museum to take a look! Let me shelter you there." I was taken aback, like which kind soul would do that. Since he insisted, I accepted his offer. When I reached, I called Laury, only to realise it was the wrong museum. HAHA big joke yes I know. So I explained my silliness and bid goodbye to him.

Warms my heart everytime I think about it. It just goes to show that Singaporeans do care as well.

Another incident happened when I was in Sec 4. I was late for school and hurry got out of bed and all. I needed to change bus to school and I was really running late. I alighted at my stop and the stop was empty except for one lady there. I panicked immediately and asked her if the bus had left. She replied, "Yes, in fact, 2 of the buses just left." I was really late so I took out my wallet and there was only a miserable purple $2 note staring back at me. She saw that I was worried and very scared, so she fished out 10bucks from her wallet and handed it to me. She told me to hurry take a cab to school. I was shocked also, and I kept rejecting but she insisted on me taking the 10 dollars. In the end, I took a cab and thankfully, I was not late for school. I then gave the remaining of the money to the church's tithes and offerings.

Dear two strangers, thank you for offering help when I needed it. I should have taken your contact or something so that I could at least do something to repay you. But it's too late now I guess. Just want to say thank you and may God bless you. :)

Empty

2010-08-23T22:01:00.002+08:00

Haven't been updating this space for a while now. Been real busy with YOG and work. In case you don't know, I have 2 jobs. Hahahaha including YOG would be 3 jobs one a "job". Can't really count YOG as a job because well, I don't get paid. It's a waste of my youth but well, cool "job".

Today is the first time I am home before like 7pm?! First time in so long. I reached home at about 4pm, bathed and fell asleep straight away. I overslept for my duty today by the way. Hahaha fail much. But at least I still went down right. Guai kia for life. \m/ I'm just waiting for my pictures to be uploaded on facebook then uploading videos onto the itouch (Haven't come up with a name for it) and back for some well-deserved sleep. I definitely deserve it for working so hard. Damn tiring kay!

Will update this space next week (Hopefully) when I get more time. Sunday - End of YOG!! YAY. Kay let your eyes feast on my chio center-parting hair. Hehe.

In case you miss me. You know you do. ^^

Am thinking of chopping my hair off too. Should I?

We'll Be Young Forever

2010-08-12T21:32:00.010+08:00

Back with more photos and updates! Firstly, take a look at my new toy!! Hehehe my itouch :) Anyway anyway back to the main topic...

Few weeks back, it was my sister's birthday!! Hehehe her chocolate cake is damn sinful. It's like running around a thousand rounds would never help. Really sinful but such rich and awesome stuff... well indulge in it once in a while should be fine. Hehe.

Then like 3 days later it was yours truly's birthday. I'm finally legal!! Feel so old yet so good to be mature finally. Hahaha. Thanks Joey Yanlin and Vanessa for the card! And a little of Gen Prime & Jonas haha funny people. The card was really cute! Thank you :)

And another round of cakes at home... Fei fei leh

Food again! This time with the H12 girls for a food trail! It is not that organised because we're just walking about and buying food when we're hungry. Hahaha. But it was still filling and I'm glad we met up! :) From Marine Parade for some dim sum to Astons for lunch to more Shilin goodies ^^ Fei fei X 10 liao lah.

HAHA SAMMY'S FACE

Last day of school saw me spending close to 20 bucks at Sugarloaf!! Gosh but I will miss the food there bento chicken is the best! Kay picture spam!

Our last day of SSM we took pictures which no one uploaded (?!) and polaroids! Polaroids I scanned in! :)

Kay that's the end tomorrow 7am shift at Fairmont will fall asleep there seriously. Goodnight!

I'm not perfect but I keep trying

2010-08-10T11:28:00.006+08:00

There is something wrong with Blogger's photo uploader, and I only managed to upload these pictures. Better than nothing but look at those two cutie pies!!! Aww love them :)

Anyway school has ended YAY finally. And I'm trying to juggle studying, working and YOG at the same time. I must learn must learn must learn not to fall. Will not give in to any chance of falling sick or crashing or being the zombie. Will survive this holidays with lots of money, experience and maintaining or getting good grades.

Kay this is a short post before I go off to buy some hair dye and off to YOG. For now, I shall eat lunch! I will update more when I finish reformatting Patrick. Poor him is so dirty and so... corrupted :( Sorry Patrick.

760 Crazy

2010-08-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

Last day of school tomorrow I CAN'T WAIT. Sem 2.1 has been crazy made lots of new friends and lots of crazy shit lah. AND SSM IS OVER WOOOOHOOOOO! So yea I should catch some sleep now and blog again soon probably when the hols really kick in. Lack of updates cause I've been so busy + lazy. Kay ciao!

Whole new experience

2010-08-01T09:47:00.000+08:00

Hi I'm blogging from my phone! Hahaha cool or what ^^ Anyway next week is the last week of school and I can't wait!!! Holidays are finally here FINALLY. This is only a short update so bye!

Get to know myself better

2010-07-24T08:22:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love: (THIS IS FUNNY I DON'T KNOW HOW TRUE IS THIS)

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I find "The seriousness of your love" pretty amusing. And hmm, pretty accurate! Thank you Gwen for trying this out, which also made me feel like doing it, and thank you Ele for posting in on your blog! :)

Time Alone Will Tell

2010-07-22T21:48:00.004+08:00

I have neglected this space for 14 days. Oh dear. That is like 2 weeks?! Bet my visitorship dropped like mad and Nuffnang is not going to give me money. :( Ahh sucks to be me.

So anyway, a lot of things happened in these 2 weeks! With the help of my tweets, I recalled the things that happened. Hahaha so let's start.

Last last Thursday, I stayed over at Joey's place! I was hit by the sleepy spell her house casted which resulted me in sleeping and waking up 3 times before being fully awake at 3am to do my work. I was tired also. The next day, we headed to school for 9am lessons and work after for me. Sleepy.

And in the middle of these 2 weeks, I think it was last last Saturday when I had TTO test, I met up with the lovely swimmers!! After so long. Everyone becoming prettier and more handsome, hor? ^^ Miss the swimming days with you all! I am so bloody fair now, envious of everyone's skin tone. :(

We had another sleepover at Joey's place, where I slept for about 2 hours in total. Cannot help it kay, slept only 3 hours the previous night after an entire day at work and next day chiong to work and crashed her place. Anyway, we had Marche on that day too to celebrate Joey's birthday! Will post pictures when she uploads it on Facebook! :) Wonderful company and we managed to finish our project.

Oh and did I mention, I got my ATM card like finally!! (Please don't rob me, I have nothing in my bank man.) Hahaha I almost forgot my pin! But thank God I remembered and yea, was so happy when I made my first cash withdrawal! Wah like cool. Haha seeing cold hard cash exit from that hole, the feeling, woohoo!

Anyway, most of the tests and project submissions are over. Marketing and TTO submissions were killer, this is the first time I stay up to finish the project kay! First time ever. And then there was TTO test, accounting tests, BESE test and PROF TEST. Hahaha thank God they are over but there is still marketing test which falls on my birthday (WTH?!) and prof test 2. Both are killer tests so I better work hard for them.

And there's work too which is actually eating up a lot of my study and project time. Contemplated quitting but I cannot give up halfway! My only source of income to keep my bank alive is this. So will probably not work so much but when the holidays come, I'm going to chiong!! But of course, I will still leave time for some alone and friends time :)

I guess that pretty sums up my 2 weeks. And school of course. By the way, I bought my pair of Vans already! Excited. Hehehe. Also ordered my itouch. New gadgets! My birthday present to myself :)

This is such a wordy post. School tomorrow at 9am! I shall go sleep soon.

Here's what You can get for my 18th (EDIT)

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1. A secluded life up in the mountains.

2. A Nikon D90 or a Canon 550D.

3. Tickets for a short getaway.

4. A new wallet. (Please no chapalang kind)

5. A food tour around Singapore (Fully sponsored including transport)

Wait till I think of more. :)